LIFE !

life why do u have to be so mean to me. I don’t want this anymore I want to stop enjoy whatever beauty if left in the world. I want to see hope and want people to love each other for who they are not what they are. And I don’t want this cruel harsh life although everyone keeps tell me it not that hard then why do I feel the way I fell and no u can’t call me emo just because I try to solve every emotional disorder I have I want to live breathe air without poison run down my lungs .....and I want life to be easy or at least meaningful to me I want education I don’t fear it but I fear losing it so I don’t even try hard ..And later I can give the excuse to life itself that I didn’t try hard enough and I love the people in my life but I never can find a way to tell them because I always screw it up BAD!
I want to stop take a break ...y wont time stop 4 me.... And the other tat lay beside me...We need a break...I cant take this ...stop lying to me to make me feel better cause I fall even future and I won’t last long if u keep doing this ...a friend asked me if I would visit her grave ...if she died but seriously y wouldn’t I, was that even a question?! And it made me think..do I have anyone who would visit mine when I m gone ...so 4 long as I live ...plz make my life beautiful in every way and help me lean from others mistake and stop the misery u keep bring in front of me.... I just want a normal l life ... nothing much nothing less... if I can get that then I’ll make something out of myself..... I promise!